Tuesday, 31 July 2012
310712 ♥
Good bye July hello August. Please be nice to me ty. Thanks July. For not letting me keep Breaking down. Or should I say, lesser. Lemme recover please. I need to focus already. Heart, please stop wandering around. Zzz. Okay bye.
Saturday, 28 July 2012
280712 ♥
Went for Beatty military band's concert. Awesome.
Alrights. Short post.
Tired of everything. Tired if this shitty life. I hate myself so much. When would I find someone that will understand me and what I really want in life. Who can even make me smile and laugh happily.
Alrights. Short post.
Tired of everything. Tired if this shitty life. I hate myself so much. When would I find someone that will understand me and what I really want in life. Who can even make me smile and laugh happily.
Friday, 27 July 2012
270712 ♥
Hi. Not really excited or looking forward to tmr. LOL. Tmr : tuition. Tuition. Home. Eat. Bath. Dinner. Band concert.
Peiqin and Ruiyao said that I wanna go for band concert it's because of him. And I say no it's not. Is it really because of him ? I don't know.
This week. Is totally shitty. I don't see him much. I don't see him tweet much. And I thought I'm like slowly forgetting him. Who knows. When they just mention him. I feel a bit depress. I don't know why.
I'm so tired of waiting. So tired of who I'm. So tired of the current me. So tired of almost everything.
Now I am so busy. Yet I still keep thinking of you. School. CO. MTDC. Tuition. Kept me very occupied. However, I still keep thinking of you. Dear brain and heart, stop thinking and waiting. He's not gonna be yours. Not now, not the future. Never.
I wanted to quit mtdc as I have no time. But, if I don't go for mtdc, I would have more time. And that means more time to think of him. Stress. What should I do? Now I'm so busy, I don't even have time to do my homework. I have to finish it and would normally stay up till 11.30 to 12. And when I go to bed, I keep thinking of him. And that make me cant sleep. Now, have you seem how much you affected me and my life?
Peiqin and Ruiyao said that I wanna go for band concert it's because of him. And I say no it's not. Is it really because of him ? I don't know.
This week. Is totally shitty. I don't see him much. I don't see him tweet much. And I thought I'm like slowly forgetting him. Who knows. When they just mention him. I feel a bit depress. I don't know why.
I'm so tired of waiting. So tired of who I'm. So tired of the current me. So tired of almost everything.
Now I am so busy. Yet I still keep thinking of you. School. CO. MTDC. Tuition. Kept me very occupied. However, I still keep thinking of you. Dear brain and heart, stop thinking and waiting. He's not gonna be yours. Not now, not the future. Never.
I wanted to quit mtdc as I have no time. But, if I don't go for mtdc, I would have more time. And that means more time to think of him. Stress. What should I do? Now I'm so busy, I don't even have time to do my homework. I have to finish it and would normally stay up till 11.30 to 12. And when I go to bed, I keep thinking of him. And that make me cant sleep. Now, have you seem how much you affected me and my life?
Sunday, 22 July 2012
220712 ♥
Hiiiiiiiiii. I don't know what to say. I just know today damn moody zzz. Okay. Shall blog about what I look for in my future bf.
Height: taller than me, around 160 to 165 ? Idk as long as he's taller than me can already.
Weight: any but it's best if he's heavier
A bit romantic. Knows how to give surprises. Mature but a bit of cute and cool. Knows how to play instrument and sports. Kind, caring and remembers important dates.
Height: taller than me, around 160 to 165 ? Idk as long as he's taller than me can already.
Weight: any but it's best if he's heavier
A bit romantic. Knows how to give surprises. Mature but a bit of cute and cool. Knows how to play instrument and sports. Kind, caring and remembers important dates.
Saturday, 21 July 2012
210712 ♥
A year older. 14. Finally it's over. Having friends wishing happy bday makes me happy but he didn't. I have nothing to say and tired to type out lengthy post so shall do it tmr or some other days. 
Friday, 20 July 2012
200712 ♥
Heyy , turning 14 in an hours time. OKAYYY. Well, since I'm growing a year older, I will now try my best to focus on my studies not think so much and of course, to live happily.
Smileeeeeee Gladys smileeeee.
Smileeeeeee Gladys smileeeee.
Monday, 16 July 2012
170712 ♥
Heyhey early dismissal today. 1.30 end. And there is MTDC later.
Heyyyyy... You know what? From this year, January till now.. I want to sought of forget you. Like how I tried during the June holiday. Whenever I just foret you a little , every night I will think of you. And I thought it was okay and nothing much. It was after the holiday. I tried but every time I wanna forget you I'll suddenly think of how happy I will get when I just see you or think of you. Why is it like this ? Tbh, I like the feeling of being in a r/s. it's sweet and you just can't stop smiling. Now, it's either I forget you once and for all, which I need time to not see you and whatever or continue waiting which I'm already very tired of already. And I don't know why I will feel my heart aching every time when somebody mention about you and your ex. Like what Ruiyao said.
Tired tired tired.
Heyyyyy... You know what? From this year, January till now.. I want to sought of forget you. Like how I tried during the June holiday. Whenever I just foret you a little , every night I will think of you. And I thought it was okay and nothing much. It was after the holiday. I tried but every time I wanna forget you I'll suddenly think of how happy I will get when I just see you or think of you. Why is it like this ? Tbh, I like the feeling of being in a r/s. it's sweet and you just can't stop smiling. Now, it's either I forget you once and for all, which I need time to not see you and whatever or continue waiting which I'm already very tired of already. And I don't know why I will feel my heart aching every time when somebody mention about you and your ex. Like what Ruiyao said.
Tired tired tired.
Saturday, 14 July 2012
150712 ♥
Alone at home now. I kept thinking bout many things. And I ask myself, why did I stop tweeting or retweeting emo stuff or lesser , I should say. And I found out the answer. What's the point , if its about tweeting it. I will get many retweets but would it make him mine ? No. So what's the point. Tsk. Tired of this shit i have been through. 
140712 ♥
Awesomee day today !! ^^
Bought a dyed highwaistshorts woohoo ^~^
Today met Peiqin at NEX for ljs lunch then we went to Clarke quay. We don't know the how to go to the flea so use the map on my phone. Then we reach too early. The booth haven't set up properly. So we went to take photos and all that HAHAHAHA.
Then bought my dyed shorts !! Heh ^~^
Bought a dyed highwaistshorts woohoo ^~^
Today met Peiqin at NEX for ljs lunch then we went to Clarke quay. We don't know the how to go to the flea so use the map on my phone. Then we reach too early. The booth haven't set up properly. So we went to take photos and all that HAHAHAHA.
Then bought my dyed shorts !! Heh ^~^
Saturday, 7 July 2012
070712 ♥
Like usual, late for MTDC. Then usually if late i will let Peiqin or Michelle open the door but today I just open the door and walk in. LOL. Then during MTDC keep thinking and thinking. Then Peiqin say nicky like me LMAO. Is like Michelle la.
I wanna know who truly cares for me but afraid to know the answer that you're not one of them. Wait you don't even take me as a friend LOL. I'm just a school junior.
I wanna know who truly cares for me but afraid to know the answer that you're not one of them. Wait you don't even take me as a friend LOL. I'm just a school junior.
Friday, 6 July 2012
060712 ♥
Fucked up mood today because of a childish person. And since it's because of a childish person, I shall not mention it on my blog as it is a waste of my time typing :) not because I'm scared to post yups. Oh and today is annabel's birthday. OMG envy her. Her birthday got so many people to celebrate with. Me? I don't think there's even 10 people that will remember my birthday. It's not about getting presents and all that. Why do I want people to know my birthday ? You may not know much about me but the least is to know which day I'm born. Or I wouldn't able to be here and we wouldn't know each other.
Recently I keep thinking like how is my life next year? Will I be like what ruiyao say, that I will forget him the moment he leave the school? Hah you know why she said that ? Because in everyones eyes, I'm just a bitch, like someone because of their looks, player and whatever. Or should I say everyone. You know sometimes i really feel like ending my life? I wonder, who will really be at my funeral and cry for I am gone. Who will? My parents and family ? Maybe, maybe not. It has Been quite a while that I have not cried. Well, good job Gladys. Will I on the day that I know that you're gonna graduate, cry for you and confess everything? I don't know. What I know is that, I'm not perfect, not pretty, not cute, not smart and everything of me just sucks. Who will fall for me? This ugly little duckling. And like I just said, I didn't cry for a month. During the holidays. And now I'm typing this blog and crying like an idiot.
I don't understand why. People can forgive a guy for dumping a girl but not a girl for dumping a guy. Fucked up seriously. And stop it. Fucking stop it. Stop bringing every thing of him up.
I'm really tired of all this fucking shit. When will I be love properly? Have a mature relationship? A matured guy to care for me? I often find myself being so lonely when walking on streets. Seeing couples being sweet. I'm so tired already. Tell me If I have made a wrong choice.
Recently I keep thinking like how is my life next year? Will I be like what ruiyao say, that I will forget him the moment he leave the school? Hah you know why she said that ? Because in everyones eyes, I'm just a bitch, like someone because of their looks, player and whatever. Or should I say everyone. You know sometimes i really feel like ending my life? I wonder, who will really be at my funeral and cry for I am gone. Who will? My parents and family ? Maybe, maybe not. It has Been quite a while that I have not cried. Well, good job Gladys. Will I on the day that I know that you're gonna graduate, cry for you and confess everything? I don't know. What I know is that, I'm not perfect, not pretty, not cute, not smart and everything of me just sucks. Who will fall for me? This ugly little duckling. And like I just said, I didn't cry for a month. During the holidays. And now I'm typing this blog and crying like an idiot.
I don't understand why. People can forgive a guy for dumping a girl but not a girl for dumping a guy. Fucked up seriously. And stop it. Fucking stop it. Stop bringing every thing of him up.
I'm really tired of all this fucking shit. When will I be love properly? Have a mature relationship? A matured guy to care for me? I often find myself being so lonely when walking on streets. Seeing couples being sweet. I'm so tired already. Tell me If I have made a wrong choice.
Thursday, 5 July 2012
050712 ♥
Hello it's be yourself day today. So basically nothing much happened today. And I should have wore school uni or something. Fuck I look so unpresentable. -.- okay so I was thinking if he will be leaving school this year or is he staying. Honestly speaking, obviously I want him to stay right ? I really can't imagine next year. Whether he's still in Beatty or not. Okay this makes it sounds so obvious. Ruiyao say today assembly that time he was just 2 cm beside me when he walking. And I was like turning and looking at another direction searching for him. I don't know why but whenever I look at him I'll feel secured. Then I actually missed it. OMFG. FML CAN. I really don't know if you're still gonna stay in school for next year but I wish you to stay. I wanna forget you but the more I wanna forget the more I wanna care and know more and more things bout you. How ? :/ 
Monday, 2 July 2012
020712 ♥
Hey hey..
Nowadays I keep never post any emo tweets or should I say some ? Cos I think even if I tweet that. No body cares. He don't care too. And he only take me as a friend. Wait not even a friend. A school mate, school junior ? Idk.
So yups. I'm not gonna care. And I don't know why I even save his photos in my phone. Like seriously. And why do I care and worry for him when he don't even give a fuck about me ? I know he only take me as a xmm.
Haiz. Maybe he will be leaving this school this year ? Or something I don't know. Kay. So what I know is that whatever I do. I'll keep think bout him. And whenever I see his name on twitter I will go see his tweet. Whenever someone calls his name or something. I'll like think about him and turn around to see if it's him.
Hmmm.. Saturday went to Somerset with Peiqin and Michelle. To exchange Peiqin bag. Went to scape and then kian wee was having a booth down there and I walked pass him but didn't know it was him then he called my name and waved to me. Then I think mushroom was there too. Lol went home and pass by dhoby ghaut mrt and the aspire hub admin say he saw me there.
Okay shall end my post now !! ^^
Nowadays I keep never post any emo tweets or should I say some ? Cos I think even if I tweet that. No body cares. He don't care too. And he only take me as a friend. Wait not even a friend. A school mate, school junior ? Idk.
So yups. I'm not gonna care. And I don't know why I even save his photos in my phone. Like seriously. And why do I care and worry for him when he don't even give a fuck about me ? I know he only take me as a xmm.
Haiz. Maybe he will be leaving this school this year ? Or something I don't know. Kay. So what I know is that whatever I do. I'll keep think bout him. And whenever I see his name on twitter I will go see his tweet. Whenever someone calls his name or something. I'll like think about him and turn around to see if it's him.
Hmmm.. Saturday went to Somerset with Peiqin and Michelle. To exchange Peiqin bag. Went to scape and then kian wee was having a booth down there and I walked pass him but didn't know it was him then he called my name and waved to me. Then I think mushroom was there too. Lol went home and pass by dhoby ghaut mrt and the aspire hub admin say he saw me there.
Okay shall end my post now !! ^^
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