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Failed literature project and failed science test badly. Told mum about it. She scolded me and say I never study. Yes I admit. I didn't study much because I really don't have time. Everyday reach home dinner bathe then do homework already like 12 to 1 am already. And people still keep pushing group work to me. When I say I really can't produce the work out or have no time to do, they would say I give excuses. So I have no choice but to stay up late till even 2 to finish up the work. And yet people don't see the effort I put in and yet they scold me. I suddenly find everything so strange and unfamiliar. In the past when people scold me for getting lousy marks, I wouldn't care. But now.. I'm like crying while typing. I should have seen this coming. Perhaps next time I should just copy. Then I wouldn't get scolded.
But whatever that I do, nobody would be please. I feel such a burden to my parents. I feel Like a waste of their time and money. And i feel so insecure and hopeless. So so so tired of this life. So tired of being me. Why do I have so much stress. Constantly having suicidal thoughts. What should I do.
I told myself not to cry one more time. But why why why did I cry again. Why are you getting weaker and weaker Gladys? You've to stay strong. No matter what.