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Hiii. Bored. So I decide to blog. Should have blog earlier. Anyways , happy birthday Singapore. Thanks for everything. ❤
So... Went to school on Wednesday for national day celebration. Then jingying , Yan ting and hui min they all cry. I don't know why. But one thing I know is that, they have friends around them asking them to not cry and what do ever. Hah. I cry ? No one give a fuck. Definitely I shed more tears than them right. Oh and I even see my friend going over to console them. She didn't even console me before. Not even once. Fuck. Why ? Why is my life so interesting. Seriously. I wish I got the sickness that Natasha got. Anorexia. I'll slim down. Grow prettier. I hate how I'm now. And I hate the fact I can't change it. Tried so hard.
Read so many people's blog this few days. People actually mention that their friends are sad and wish them to cheer up. Now one do that to me.
Went to level 33 with family and Yanyi she ask me to go confess. Because he's leaving soon. But... I know I won't do it. He'll never be mine. What for to make both of us awkward ?
I feel so insecure. Feeling the emptiness each time I see a couple.
I tell myself not to think of you. Tell myself to stop loving you. But... Every time I'll look around for you. Wishing for you. Hear your name and turn back to see. But each time, it turns out to be great disappointments. I've tried. And I've enough.
Gladys, it's time to let go. All this memories. And everything. You have to let go.
One day. Just one day I'll move on. But I know, the day isn't today. I need time.