Firstly, really paiseh and sorry to Peiqin cuz we actually planned to go paya lebar together. Then I ask Kammi watch movie with me and I thought Pq was still sleeping so I ask Kammi go paya lebar with me. So yeah, sorry.
Secondly, I hate the fact I still can't get over the fact that I still have feelings for him. Why is it that even going to the movies , I also want to go to somewhere that he is at? Why? Why do I want to see him so much? Why is that I tell people I've gotten over him, I don't want to see him but deep inside I still have feelings for him, still hoping to see him every minute every second. People keep asking me to move on and all that. But it's like stuck there you know ? Is it that I don't want to move on or what ?
Thirdly, why did I even ask Kammi to watch movie is cuz I don't want to stay at home doing homework and I know I would spend most of the time on twitter and thinking bout things.
Fourthly, why am I still feeling guilty to him? It's the past. Seems like everything my friends say bout getting dumped by their ex, reminds me of how I'm treating him? It makes me feel like a bitch. I hate it. I hate myself.
I'm so useless. I can't do well in everything. I'm a failure. I wonder why my parents even want to give birth to me. I should not even exist. I am just wasting their time and money.
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